Main Entry: aunt·ie
Pronunciation: \ˈan-tē, ˈän-\
Function: noun
Date: 1725

Since 1725 - mhmm that's almost close to 3 centuries that the word has tormented females worldwide when use inappropirately. Yes, the word reflects the speaker's respect towards an older female... but what if it's used to address someone not much older than urself and who isn't biologically a sibling of either parent? Now thatz gonna be one hell of an insult, isn't it?

Now now, why am I blogging about this? Nah ~ I wasn't addressed that way by a kid today (though I've had been before in the past). The thought of this entry just came to me when I was reading the New Paper during lunch. More specifically, about the article regarding how Zoe Tay came under the fire of netizens when irresponsible comments regarding her wrinkles were made - to which she mentioned that she's unable to live up to the viewers' expectations and that she'll never consider even botox to retain her career. Apparently the wrinkles were so obvious on high-def tv that nit pickers chose it to become a point of debate.

Well, I've never been a fan of Zoe Tay, or even local television to begin with, but I'd say - Kudos for her for her comments in the paper! Yes, I stick to my stand that females should never go under the knife in order to enhance their looks just to be socially accepted. It's just unnatrual. Usage of skincare products is fair enough. Undergoing plastic surgery is just ridiculous.

However, I can see why females are forced to take that path. It's just how the world is so stupidly unbalanced. Like it or not, females are (and have always been) judged based on the way they look and the benchmarks have been set by the mass media. I don't deny that first impressions count. But humans should have the logic and maturity to look beyond the packaging instead of letting them remain forever.

It's just scary, thinking, as I ate. That at 28 the end of this year, am no longer in my "prime". The way I see it, females are in their prime 18-25; while males are a decade later at 28-35. I'm 3 years past that stage and in another 2, I'll hit the big "3". I've gotta face up to reality that not only I'm no longer as young as I used to be (duh), I don't look young anymore either. Traces of my age are starting to show on my face, on my skin. Perhaps it's time to seriously do something about it... and I guess adopting a healthier lifestyle and maybe even basic skincare are the 1st steps *sigh*.

The wrinkles are forming, the "light" in my eyes is fading, I'm physically weakening... etc. the future doesn't look too promising. I'm gradually approaching the age of my mum as I know it ~ yeah, I always remember my mum @ 36 for some reason. Guess that's when in Primary One, am asked how old my mum is and all. I can't remember how she looks like at that point of time though. All I know is age is catching up with me. 36. Gosh. I was born when she was 30.

Is my time running out?

Like a numbing pain that doesn't go away. It gets better @ times, so fine that it can be pushed to the back of the mind - then suddenly a sharp stab reminds u of the wound & the pain can be felt once again. It's so hard. So hard at times to just forget and let it go. An amputation of the festering limb might be necessary but it'll require a tremendous amount of strength. Mental strength that I don't seem to possess anymore. Not even anger & rage is able to give me that addtional boost.

*sigh* Can anyone even be trusted to keep up their end of the bargain these days? Is it so deep ingrained in human nature that it's inevitable that people lie or hide things from each other?

I can't help wondering -- why do I even bother? Considering that I've a track record of having everything thrown back against me eventually. The promises are sweet. They always are. So sweet that they make the bitterness @ the end just so much more terrible. As mentioned before, Hope can be a dangerous thing.

Sometimes I just wish, that my Life would hit a plateau. It might be boring that way... but it sure beats the emotional roller coasters. Am probably just getting too old for all this crap anymore.