Been a kinda frustrating Friday.

Started off with having my period early in the morning b4 I went to sleep. That's like sufficient to bust my mood for the entire day already.

Then, I didn't manage to get enough snooze for I was woken up in the noon by dad. Had an appointment with the lawyer so yeah... had to go. At least the discussion went pretty alright and I finally started the ball rolling on the grounds of unreasonable behavior. Didn't have much of a choice since that fucknut proved to be uncontactable. A non-contested divorce based on 3 yrs separation would be ideal though. Less hassle, less legal fees. Well, I've got 2 weeks to try get hold of him so hopefully it can be done coz am pretty sure he's gonna contest the unreasonable behavior thingy. The less mess the better. Have wasted too much time & energy on the r/s already - don't want ending it to be another pain in the ass.

Why do I still care enough to be affected? Uhmm... tbh, it's not that I still care about the r/s. It's coz all those stuff, reiterating everything all over again really brings up memories that I honestly would prefer not to remember. All the bad times, all that fucktard's negative behavior. Bahh, and it does remind me how silly I was back then. That's the part that's hardest to bear imo. That I didn't have the strength to walk away frm the r/s b4 things escalated to that extent. It's easy to say rite now. Lolx, it was just difficult to make the decision then.

Am pretty sure it's gonna be another mind vs heart thingy eventually with how things are going on for me these days too. Knowing myself, am gonna follow my heart as usual & that'll probably result in the same circle like before. Time and again. History will never fail to repeat itself. In my case that is. /shrug. At times I really wonder if I get myself into such situations on purpose. Always attempting the seemingly impossible. Always tempting fate. Always hoping that there'll be a plesant surprise @ the end of it. Yeah ~ am just fcking asking for it.

Thing is, I'll never be able to live it down if I gave up w/o trying. Even if it means I'll end up having smack myself in the head for being foolish. Mehh... I rather get that smack from being foolish than have to slam my face into the wall for not having the balls to try. I just can't live with "what-ifs".

I wonder how badly I'll get burned this time. ROFL.

Anyway was speaking about a frustrating Friday. Well ~ I went on Barthilas for a bit to prepare my warrior for tml's Naxx-10. Did a little shopping. Looked @ my gear and itz like T_T. Neither my dps or tank gear is wonderful. *sigh* Also there are like so many fcking tanks in the guild... makes me wonder if I haven't been wasting my time gearing tank. Ahhhh fck it! Gotta remember nt to be too upset over a game T_T

If that ain't enough, everyone seems to be speaking weirdly on MSN.

"Sorry". This word seems to be overused. Fat lot good when a person apologises and does the same thing over and over and over (x infinity)... again. Yeah ~ after sometime, I'll get used to it. I'll probably live with it. But getting used to something & living with something doesn't really mean being unaffected by the same thing. When it happens, it still frustrates / annoys / hurts / saddens... blah blah. Mhmm... as an example, well, just coz u get used to pain doesn't make the pain less painful does it?

Blah!!